Reason

As I browse my twitter page, I saw this from Luis:

luckymanzano Luis Manzano 

not sure if we've met already or have yet to meet but i cant wait to find out if you are the reason why the others never worked :)

That's a very inspiring statement. Of all the heartaches I've been through, I know someday, my reason will come up. I can't wait to finally see you. You may be a person in the past, a friend, a colleague, a former colleague, former classmate, future colleague, future enemy, etc. I am thrilled by the idea that you are on your way to meet me.

One of the break-up lines Ron and I had was: "Malay mo baka kaya nagmamadali si Lord mo na alisin ako sa buhay mo kase malapit ng dumating ang para sayo talaga" I said, "Tama ka, malapit na"

It may be BS at first, but R, as smart as he really is, figured out, that I don't deserve less, and for that, he is correct and I am thankful for him.Ü

Move Forward

"Those who have hurt you in the past cannot continue to hurt you now unless you hold on to the pain through resentment. Your past is past. Nothing will change it. You are only hurting yourself with your bitterness. For your own sake, learn from it, and then let it go."


--Rick Warren, The Purpose Driven Life




thanks Karen for sending me this.Ü


Let us all move forward. Please. I am doing it, so please do you share. Thank you.

Happy Monthsary!

Yay. I've been out of the Philippine Work Force for a month now. 


No regrets still. I am enjoying the feeling of not worrying anything about work: stats, manager, teammates, clothes to wear, food to eat, cigarettes to puff, money to spend, etc.  For the past 5 years of my life, I never had any long vacation and I'm treating this jobless time as a very good vacation. I eat a lot, and when I say eat, it means eating good food, home-cooked food: bye fastfood! I get full 8hours of sleep at night, yes AT NIGHT. I  get to watch my favorite series. I get to just lie down in bed, read anything that interests me. I get to meet up with my friends, since yes, I have my time now.  I get to think of lotsa things that come to my mind. In short, I get to really rest. Isn't this a nice one? :D


On the other hand, I'm not earning, therefore, I can't get the things that I want. I can't just splurge knowing that I don't have 
that big of a savings. Wish ko lang I have like 200k in my savings just for personal spending. Haha :D


One thing I learned is not to settle for anything less. So there, I'm taking my time to choose what field is really for me. Wow, meganon? Tamad lang ako talaga :P Haha. Seriously, I don't wanna make another mistake, i'm being careful in choosing my next job. I 
don't wanna spend another 2-3 years for nothing. Ü




so, happy monthsary to my being jobless. i hope to spend another month with no job. KIDDING :P

Job Offer

Today is the day I declined my offer to be a Senior Recruiter at PSG Global Solutions.


Reasons?
1. They offered 18k basic + 3k food and transpo allowance + 2k for perfect attendance - that's way lower than what I get from 24/7. I know I shouldn't be so demanding since it was my choice to leave 24/7 with the risk of not getting a job that would atleast match my salary there. And yes, it's not a callcenter industry so I wont be paid to take in calls. However, I heard a lot of things about PSG from my friends, hence reason number 2.


2. They don't pay OTs. People are super machismis and pasosyal -- I noticed it myself.
3. Though the job description is okay, I didn't get to feel that "para ako dito" feeling when I stepped into their office. I promised myself not to settle again so I let it go na lang.


I texted Paula and informed her about my decision. Minutes after, Ben, the manager, called me. He then asked me why and gave me all reasons why I should get the job. I appreciate the call and the feeling that they really want me to work with them. I gave him my reasons especially the compensation side plus I told him I cannot give him a Yes if I am not a hundred percent sure of it. Then Ben suddenly told me, "well just call me anytime once you have decided on it. you just showed how indecisive you are and not even able to give me a rational answer. that's not what we need as a recruiter here" Then he hang up without hearing me say my piece. Walang closing spiel teh! Kalerky. Hehe


He just showed me that I got the right decision. Sayang, I looked up to him pa naman. He was really nice. Sorry na lang. Ü

Wow Night

Before evening last night, it came to my knowledge that my ex's wife is doing some rumormongering about me; why I quit work and why my recent relationship ended. Why on earth would she know about it? Are we friends? Does her loving husband make kwento about me? Nah. Maybe she has friends from the office who hate me. Haters are everywhere. It pissed me off and blogged about her. Since she visits my Multiply regularly, why not give her the satisfaction of seeing her name and the screenshot of her viewing in my blog? But after  hours, I got back to normal and hid the blog. What for? It will just make things worse.

I just don't understand why she still keeps on bugging me. If I can just say "JJ tama na okay lang ba? May problema ka ba saken?" If it's that easy Ill do that, but she's impossible to deal with. I don't even know if she can understand a thing. Hehe. So tell me, why does she always do that? Jat and I are not in speaking terms since they got married, I even cut my ties with Jat's family for two years, I don't even post pictures and blogs about them. So why???? Tell me. Hay. I hope it will come to JJ's senses that what she's doing is so pathetic. You got my guy, you got married, then what? Still go after me and say nasty things about me? Where's fairness man?

On a lighter note, I was able to see my other ex's life through my sister's FB last night as well. He got married last December 22, 2010. Funny. We planned our wedding December 26, 2009. Martin became my boyfriend 5-6months after Jat left me. We had a whirlwind and spur-of-the-moment type of relationship, to the point that we even planned of getting married. But then, things didn't work. No hard feelings. I saw his wedding photos and it made me smile. Whattanight for me. Hehe.

Realizations: Two of my former flames are now married. The recent flame is/was/is/was married--funny ayt? And my great love, the one prior to the three, used to be engaged and now, free na. Haha. Maisingit lang :P What's happening to the world today. Hehe :D Buti pa asawa ni Martin, walang eklavu. Hehe.

Ayun. I pray for JJ's sanity. ÜÜÜ Nyahahhaha

On Getting Married

One of my college friends is getting married this April 12, 2011. They've been together for three years, spent good and bad times together, introduced each other to their respective families, went to different places together, ate out many times, took pictures together and many more. Thats is the exact same scenario I wanted 5 years ago. Well it can still be what I want, it's just not reflecting as I go through re-routing in my life.


I am praying they would have a magnificent married life as my parents did. I am still disillusioned of having to give yourself to someone, with all your love and trust, and respect, hoping that the other person would do the same. As I witnessed relationships that are tested by time, models that should make me believe in love of the lifetime, I still cannot convince myself of it because I had a share of witnessing couples and marriages broke down. I was even part of a wala-na-kame-matagal-na-marriage-is-not-for-us-its-the-best-for-the-children-if-we-break-up situation once.


After a-not-so-great-event in my life, I realized that it takes 200% of someone's patience and commitment to be and stay with that kind of relationship. Bravo for the couples who stand by each other, who still continue to keep the love and save the marriage. It's not a walk in the park situation. I really commend people who can commit their whole self and whole life to their other half. I believe I once had that kind of guy who can give me the world, but stupid me let go of him. No regrets sure, but of course, it's still nakakapanghinayang. All I am thinking is that, it made me who I am now and made him who he is now. Who know's, we're still destined to each other after all? Hehe :D


I guess all I need is time to believe and love again. I am happy for Dyan and Marion. Not every couple is brave enough to face reality. In two years time kaya I'll be like them with the man meant for me? Sana.♥

TV Series

Thanks to R for introducing me to the world of American TV Series (kung hindi, MaraClara lang ako. Bwahaha)

Big Bang Theory

I super heart Sheldon from Big Bang Theory. He never fail to amuse me from the very moment I started watching until now that I get to re-watch the old episodes. There's just something in him that makes me really happy. Ahahaha :D

Name: Dr. Sheldon Cooper MSc, PhD.
Occupation: Theoretical physicist.
From: Texas.
IQ: 187.

Sheldon is the uber geek, he possesses a Master's degree and 2 PhDs, and conducts string theory research at Caltech. He shares an apartment with Leonard.

Unashamedly geeky, he has no qualms about speaking Klingon, he doesn't mind sharing details of his life that others might find embarrassing, such as a common activity being Klingon Boggle until the wee hours. He wears vintage t-shirts sporting superhero logos.

As a child prodigy, Sheldon was involved in numerous experiments as a child, such as his plan to provide free electricity for his town by building a nuclear reactor. A plan stopped only by government pen pushers claiming it's illegal to store yellow cake uranium in a garden shed! Sheldon started college at the age of 11, receiving his first PhD at 16.

While he might claim to be the perfect human specimen, Sheldon does have his faults - although he'd never admit it! He lacks empathy, is unable to discern sarcasm, doesn't like change, and has an inflated ego. He does not understand social norms, and makes little attempt to do so.

Sheldon: I made tea. 
Leonard: I don't want tea. 
Sheldon: I didn't make tea for you. This is my tea. 
Leonard: Then why are you telling me? 
Sheldon: It's a conversation starter. 
Leonard: That's a lousy conversation starter. 
Sheldon: Oh, is it? We're conversing. Checkmate. ÜÜÜ

Sheldon: Good morning everyone and welcome to "Science and Society". I'm Dr. Sheldon Cooper, BS, MS, MA, PhD and ScD. OMG, right?

Gossip Girl


You know you love me. XOXO


As a girl, of course I dreamed of becoming the combination of Blair and Serena. Who wouldn't? With beauty, money, fame. Everything. Maiba lang. Hehe.  Ü

"You can't make people love you but you can make them fear you" -Blair

"The best way to get over someone, is to get under someone else." --Kristen Bell as Gossip Girl


"Fine. You know what? I will stay away from Nate and Dan. But you have to stay away from Chuck and Eva. No plotting. No meddling. No Blair Waldorfing" --Blake Lively as Serena van der Woodsen


"I destroyed the only thing I ever loved." --Ed Westwick as Chuck Bass


"I always have a plan C" --Leighton Meester as Blair Waldorf


"I don't love you anymore. But it takes more than even you to destroy a Blair Waldorf" --Leighton Meester as Blair Waldorf

Vampire Diaries

And who else doesn't know the Salvatore Brothers? Waaaaaahhh. Enough said. Nyahahaha

I SUPER HEART YOU DAMON ♥♥♥

ikaw na maganda teh :P
For once I don`t regret the day before it begins. Because I know I`ll see him again. For the first time in a long time I feel good. -Elena Gilbert

@iansomerhalder

"Some girls just can`t refuse my good looks, my style and my charm and my unflinching ability to listen to Taylor Swift." -Damon Salvatore “You’re surprised that I thought you would kiss me back? You can’t imagine that I’d believe that you’d want to? That what we’ve been doing here means something? You’re the liar, Elena. There is something going on between the two of us, and you know it. And you’re lying to me, and you’re lying to Stefan, and most of all you’re lying to yourself. I can prove it."  --Damon Salvatore

"Some girls just can`t refuse my good looks, my style and my charm and my unflinching ability to listen to Taylor Swift." -Damon Salvatore “You’re surprised that I thought you would kiss me back? You can’t imagine that I’d believe that you’d want to? That what we’ve been doing here means something? You’re the liar, Elena. There is something going on between the two of us, and you know it. And you’re lying to me, and you’re lying to Stefan, and most of all you’re lying to yourself. I can prove it."  --Damon Salvatore

"Some girls just can`t refuse my good looks, my style and my charm and my unflinching ability to listen to Taylor Swift." -Damon Salvatore

“You’re surprised that I thought you would kiss me back? You can’t imagine that I’d believe that you’d want to? That what we’ve been doing here means something? You’re the liar, Elena. There is something going on between the two of us, and you know it. And you’re lying to me, and you’re lying to Stefan, and most of all you’re lying to yourself. I can prove it."  --Damon Salvatore

“You’re surprised that I thought you would kiss me back? You can’t imagine that I’d believe that you’d want to? That what we’ve been doing here means something? You’re the liar, Elena. There is something going on between the two of us, and you know it. And you’re lying to me, and you’re lying to Stefan, and most of all you’re lying to yourself. I can prove it."  --Damon Salvatore

Stefan

For over a century, I`ve lived in secret. Hiding in the shadows, alone in the world. Until now. I`m a vampire and this is my story. --Stefan Salvatore

True Blood


Oh yes, another vampire series again. It's weird because I never wanted to watch the Twilight Saga nor read Anne Rice's novels. Hehe. Nahawa lang from others. Ako na gaya-gaya. R and I finished the whole season 1-3. Now that's annoying. Hehe. The first series we watched and finished together. BlahBlahBlah :P

Bill Compton

Sookie Stackhouse

Eric Northman

Grey's Anatomy -- the series I have watched but never continued to. Haha. :D 

The Walking Dead -- another series R and I watched, but bitin, it's still on episode 6. Good series though.

Flash Forward --Define BITIN. Blame Karen for this. Ahahaha :D

Sex and the City - Absofcukinlutely. Just started the series. Yes. Season 1 episode 8. Nyahahaha :D

Meditation

I've always wanted to try Yoga but for some reasons-Money, Time, Health condition, etc- I am not able to attend any of the Yoga classes available. :P I know this would help me lose weight, with proper mindset, control emotions especially anger...and most of all, this would help me be silent. :D asa.com/ph


Bikram Yoga - I wanted to try this the soonest time possible. Excited for the sweating and balancing, I promise myself to attend this class before I start with my new job. Define new job. Haha :D

I can do this!!!Ü

Another thing I wanna try is the Meditation itself. One of the managers who interviewed me shared with me one of her secrets to having a good and positive outlook. Brahma Kumaris

it says:

Learn Raja Yoga

Raja Yoga meditation redefines the self as a soul and enables a direct connection and relationship with the Supreme Source of purest energy and highest consciousness. Raja Yoga can be translated as ‘supreme union’, or as ‘highest connection’. Every soul has a right to experience this ultimate relationship.

The Benefits of Meditation

Meditation calms the mind and body. It dissolves many fears replacing them with lightness and freedom from anxiety. It expands one’s capacity to love. It is the process of re-discovering, enjoying and using the positive qualities latent within you. Meditation helps create new attitudes and responses to life, as it gives a deeper spiritual understanding of oneself. With practice, meditation brings the glow of inner peace, gentle yet strong.

There. Haha. I have so many things in mind that I wanna do. Bawal tamad. Ahahaha Ü

why not? hehe

the idea of moving out from the old apartment R and I used to share was by far the best idea i had executed in this moving-on chenes. leaving the house with forfeited deposit of 13k was so much to bear considering that i got no job at the moment but the idea of staying in that apartment is like paying 7k of torment every month...so there, i moved out leaving all the bad vibes i have in my system :D

as i was fixing my stuff at joyce and rizelle's unit-the new place for me, Kayi sent me a message asking me to visit them. the BUM that I was took the chance and said yes to her. After the all time kumustahan, it went to the lovestory eklavu. I then shared that I got no boyfriend na and she went like: "waaaaaaahhh...nagkakaproblema ren si W kay J"

i was speechless for a minute then went ballistic. my heart was beating so fast that i couldnt understand what i was saying. hehe :D

anyway, so much for it. it just made my detour. i can still smile and hope afterall. hehe. i know, its close to impossible na maging kame ulet pero the fact na wala na syang girlfriend a week after i lost mine, nakakaloka. haha. he's the greatest love of my life btw :D

DON'T GET ME WRONG. Its not that I want them to break-up, bahala sila. What I am saying is that, ay wag na lang magexplain, di ren naman ako magegets Ü

Mrs. Ligot

what the hell are you doing? you just made your life more miserable by acting like that. watching the senate hearing earlier made me get up from bed and get water to drink. haha :D

You Tell Me

I am tired. Ive been like this for the longest time. Working unhappily, chasing complications, putting myself in compromising situations. What the hell is wrong with me? I don't know. You tell me. 

Hello Multiply. I'm back. After a year of not touching you with emo words, now, here I am again, trying to spell out EPISODES.

Again, I am enduring another break-up. As always, the first week hurts like hell. It hurts that I thought of not wanting another tomorrow. It was painful, devastating, heart-wrecking. Details are not necessary, the person shouldn't be named as I am trying to erase everything for the meantime.

I quit work. That company brought me so much that I could no longer handle it anymore. It helped a lot. Cutting ties was something I never did before, and I must say, it helps a lot. No more FB for me. WOW. Yes. Away from the noisy and nosy world. 

If I can just stop my world and erase everything that is painful, I would do it. I would start fresh and walk the right path again. Just if I can. 

I want to rest, to hibernate, to end my illusions, to end my despair. I know I am standing strong little by little. I'm giving the wheels to Him, to drive me to the right path. Show me how to drive again, and this time, I'll do my best to follow. 

I will find a new and different job. I will meet new people. I will forget the old and complicated-not-thinking-of-the-consequences Din. I will smile again someday without bitterness. I am keeping the faith.

I tell you, I am back and I will bounce higher than what I have reached. Ü

Ligpo Island Trip 02/18/2010

In my pursuit of silence in this noisy world, this Island became the refuge of my pathetic soul.Ü

good morning World

ako lang talaga dito, as in ako lang :P

so serene Ü

oh diba ang hinahon ng paligid. pano naman ako hindi maliliwanagan that time diba? so pathetic ng reason. lalake na naman. ahahaha :D and malay ko ba na a year after this goddamn trip, eh isang breakup na naman ang ieendure ko. la la la :D hehe

Visit their site Click Here

ako na ang photographer :D

and again, mahirap sya kase i had to take solo pics again, alone. amp.

full details: Click Here

Corregidor Trip: 08/22/2008

welcome to corregidor island. yebah Ü

it's my first solo trip ever. it happened 3 years ago after being faced with a total ego and heart challenge. why corregidor? wala lang. hehe :D it was fun and exciting.

it was not that easy: 1. you had to have someone take a picture of you 2. you're mending a broken heart and there you were, alone while others have someone to cuddle with 3. you have no one to depend on but yourself 4. you have no friends to laugh with during the trip 5. you have to accomplish the trip all by yourself

o diba, not so easy but i was able to do it. :P

to be fair to corregidor naman, its a nice place. very historical and pang-trip lang talaga. Ü

to know more about how to book for that trip Click Here

then I met two guys: Tito Dan and Kuya Den. Amazing isnt it? hahaha

for full details of the trip, Click Here

after that trip, i had a good body massage. what else can be more wonderful ayt? :D