Rundown 2013

It was indeed a great year for me! The wins overpowered the losses; smiles are greater than frowns, sweetness vanished all bitterness.

I bloomed. In every aspect that you can think of. I realized that the best way to be pretty is to be happy. :)

This year I became a better version of myself. Looking back to my younger years, I must say that 2013 made me better. 

I proved that you are who you are with. Surround yourself with beautiful and positive people - your family, friends, at work, and of course the love of your life. I did the right thing of sticking with the people whom I am with right now. 

Year 2013 is a shout out to my loved ones for always making me feel so blessed. Mamang, say hello to Daddy for all of us.

One of a kind relationship with Beejay. Promotion. Stronger ties with family and friends. Who won't be thankful? :)

PS. My pimples are now gone, and it made my 2013 happier. Haha.

2014, I am so ready for you. I promise to watch my health this time..will exert extra effort to be healthy. It might help me lessen my mood swings. :P 

Cheers to a vibrant 2014!!!! Mabuhay! =))

THANK YOU LORD. YOU ARE THE AWESOMEST!!!!

10 Things

What Beej says:10 Things I Love About You

1. You cook delicious food, and you do your best to satisfy my cravings.

2. You are not picky on where we would spend our very simple date or dinner. Anywhere is fine as long as you spend time with me.

3. You are always appreciative of everything I do for you. You don't take things for granted just because what I do is "normal".

4. You're very, very sweet.

5. You are in good terms with my family. You keep a constant communication with them. And your family and extended family are very, very hospitable to me. They are so easy to get along with.

6. You're happy with the way I look, i.e., you don't try to push me into developing a Taylor Lautner-like body. And you try yourself to always look pretty for me like it's always our first date. And you make me fall in love at first sight all over again.

7. You don't make a mockery of me in front of our friends when they try to criticize or make fun of me.

8. On discussion with your friends, you don't tell them that I am a heartless boyfriend whenever we get into an argument. And you surround yourself with good friends who make you better rather than with other people who do nothing but pull someone down with their negativity.

9. You don't live a double life where you're a totally different person to your family or a certain group of friends. You are the same wherever you go - at home and church with family, at work with colleagues, and at parties with friends.

10. We are on the same track with how we would want to spend our lives together in the future. You don't live in make-believe worlds and you certainly don't have hangups with the past.

What I say: 10 Things I Love About You

1. You pick me up and drive me home every time we'll go out. You call me and send me SMS and chat messages all the time. 

2. You feed me whenever I'm hungry or even when not. You feed my friends too. Hehe. You appreciate my cooking and eat whatever I cook for you. 

3. You surprised me big time when you went straight to our home in Batangas and introduced yourself to my mom. All by yourself and google maps. Nobody in my existence has ever done that to me. And I don't think any other guy can. After a long time, I felt I have finally made my mom happy by bringing home someone like you.

4. You made yourself liked and loved by my friends. And because of that, you made my bestfriend pray for someone like you. 

5. You wait for 30 minutes just to see and talk to me for 5minutes before my shift and before you go home. 

6. You let me take pictures of us anytime anywhere. You let me do my thing and support me all the way. You let me wear whatever clothes I want to wear.

7. You never forced me to like the things that you like. You teach me things I am not aware of. You patiently explain things that are not easy for me to comprehend. You as well, listen to my every explanation and story.

8. You make me laugh all the time. With your wit, sensibility, and humor, I know I won't get tired of talking to him 24/7.

9. You make me behave without mandating me to do so. You trust me and speak nothing about my past. 

10. You always tell me I'm beautiful even though I know I'm not. You surprise with me little and big things. You put up with my tantrums and mood swings. I am nothing, not even close to whoever you were with (well in terms of hobbies, likes, interests...) but you make me feel that I am everything you want to be with today and the rest of our days.

These and a whole lot more! :)

I Am Dating A Keeper

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The Story of My Old Life

A compilation of my blog posts from 2009-2011. Weird. Melodramatic. Complicated. Very me. I now realize the reason why I suddenly stop writing..posting...that's because my life has never been this good. :)

eyes on me?

January 16, 2010 at 11:55pm

if you can see me then look at me
if i dont look back, turn around and be free
i can look and see, but i hardly feel
for this will save me from some misery

i will glance and take my time to see
the goodness in the path and the vicinity
my eyes will find what its ought to be
but my mind will cease and will not agree

these eyes take chances for you and me
but it does'nt mean tomorrow it would still be
unless you show that your eyes are for me
mine wont be as good as what you think it will be

dont blind your eyes with me in ecstasy
for it would pass and soon you'll forget me
im doing you a favor and giving you rationality
but if you may insist, go on and love me.

estrella

February 2, 2010 at 2:19am

Gusto kong kuminang
sa langit mong ako lang sana ang bituin.

Ang kagustuhan ay may hangganan.
Sana ang kinang ay hindi maglaho ng ganon ganon lang.

Kung hindi uubra, pwede bang
hayaan mo na lang akong
kuminang sa langit ng iba?

25th

December 11, 2010 at 11:46pm

ideal thoughts are behind the bars of reality . they want to scream as loud as possible, go out and be seen. but the road offers no sign that princess-like life will be happening to me. that's all I want for my 25th, let them free even for just twenty four hours.

defense on

January 12, 2010 at 3:49am

unleash the power of the mind
trash the cries of the heart
for once let the head drive
the tide that feelings ought to hide

maneuver to the road
where senses are on board
you'll see at the end, its no fraud

surpass the challenge of the blinded heart
and trust what your head is taking part

the order that makes the chaos life free..

Pero Kasi

December 16, 2009 at 11:57am

you make me smile after the frown
yet you make me frown after that smile
you make me sleep with a good night's kiss
yet you make me wake up feeling no bliss
you wait for me till i finish my bath
yet you make me wait like there's nothing i got
you make me tamed
yet you make me wanna end our flame

you make me lose my guard and might
yet what you do makes me up and smart
you make me hold on and not give up
yet you dont tell me what you really want


you make me think this just happened too fast
yet your consistent actions make me think otherwise
you make me think of crazy things
yet you stop me from thinking deeply about this

I want to stop this thing with You
yet You make me stay like giving up is really hard to do.

Argh. Maliligo na'ko. Late nako.

Ngayon o Bukas

November 23, 2009 at 8:17am

hindi ko alam kung kelan tama
kung ngayon na lang ba kasi hindi na pwede bukas
o kaya naman
hindi pwede ngayon kaya bukas na lang

o baka naman

hindi talaga pwede
ngayon man, bukas, o kahit kailan.

sa palagay mo ba may tama pa?

On Change

September 29, 2009 at 10:51pm

As I look at the pictures, the stories of the people around me, I keep asking myself if in the past few years have I changed..and if it’s for the better or otherwise. Years back, you would only see me in the streets of Dapitan, UST premises, Dapitan’s inuman places, Dormitory..SM Manila, Cavite, Batangas..those were the only places I used to go to..you can only see me with same set of people, same crowd..doing routinary activities..it was oh so simple.

As years passed, my system has been eaten up by the demands outside my comfort zone. I graduated. I found myself in an industry that was never in my list of interests. I learned to embrace the culture, the people, not knowing that it unconsciously changed me. The people in my life before I entered the industry slowly drifted away..circumstances and my fault combined as the reasons why.

I was tied up with diverse kinds of people. I had to remain tough and real to still have my values intact. As I grow older in the industry, I realized that I was living a moderate life, the “play-safe” kind of life. I was so naïve with the real world in front of me. I learned to adjust and have the ideal world that I know be vanished away. I am not in any way blaming others of what I have become, it was and still my choice to be here and to be doing what I am doing. It’s not that I don’t like who I am now, it’s just that, it’s not the one I pictured out myself to be.

Lately , I’ve been questioning myself if the changes are all worth it..i always end up convincing myself that it’s a Yes. If not for the changes and things that occurred to me, I won’t be the tougher and smarter Din. I may be putting myself into some complicated situations, people may see me as inconsiderate and loud, others may say nasty comment about me but that wouldn’t stop me from growing.

blank. blank. blank.

I can’t continue writing..i don’t know why. My thoughts suddenly stop pouring. Can someone help me continue to put into words what you now see in me?



I’m dead. Darn it. It there’s one thing I hate about staying in Batangas during rest days, it could be this…having to realize many things. Argh.

Miss Na Kita

July 11, 2009 at 1:25pm

Miss na Kita, alam mo ba? Minsan na lang kita makasama, minsan na lang kita makausap. Pag nabigyan ng oras, minsan inaabuso ko pa..sa halip na sayo lang, andami-dami ko pang ginagawa, andami-dami ko pang iniisip. Alam ko palagi kang may oras saken, ako lang ang wala..eh anong magagawa ko? Minsan ang ilap mo rin naman..hindi kasi tyo nabigyan ng normal na sitwasyon eh. An hirap mo naman suyuin para lambingin at dalawin ako pag kelangan na kita..tapos dumadating ka at nagpapapansin kung kelan dapat magkalayo tyo at parang hindi magkakakilala.

Haay.Ang hirap. Eto ang landas na pinili ko eh, ang malayo sayo at ndi ka makasama..pero okay lang..bukas sisiguraduhin ko na makakasama kita at hay naku sana magka-oras nako sayo talaga..sana hindi mo ko iwan kasi kelangan kita..sobra!

hehehe..ang emote..antok na antok na'ko! Miss na kita tulog!!!! ampft!

darn it. i badly need to sleep..tipong 24 hrs straight. beat that. hehehe..

Hindi Pwede

June 6, 2009 at 9:01pm

hindi pwedeng pag gusto mo, lahat dapat nakukuha mo
hindi pwedeng pag malungkot ka, lahat sila nakikilungkot sa'yo
hindi pwedeng pag masaya ka, nakikisaya sila sa'yo
hindi pwedeng lahat ng bagay at nararamdaman mo eh importante para sa mga tao sa paligid mo

hindi pwedeng mababang stats ang magpapatigil sa'yo
hindi pwedeng isang masunget na bisor ang pwedeng magpahina sa'yo
hindi pwedeng isang panget na shift ang mgpapabsent sa'yo
hindi pwedeng isang matinding ulan ang magpapatamad sa'yo
hindi pwedeng isang misunderstanding ang magpapademotivate sa'yo
hindi pwedeng maging mahina sa isang bagay na alam mong bumubuhay sa'yo

hindi pwedeng magsisi sa lahat ng bagay na nagawa mo dahil sa isang banda ginusto mo
hindi pwedeng malungkot ng sobra-sobra dahil hindi lang ikaw ang may problema
hindi pwedeng isiping malas ka, dahil alam mo sa sarili mong madami kang dapat ikatuwa pa
hindi pweng magreklamo ang taong wala namang ginagawa para magbago

hindi pwedeng isang lalaki lang ang magpapa-ikot at sisira ng buhay mo, hindi sya worth it
hindi pwedeng mag-inarte kung wala kang boyfriend, dahil hindi katapusan ng mundo yan
hindi pwedeng feeling mo gusto ka rin ng crush mo kung lumalandi rin sya syo
hindi pwedeng palagi na lang lalake ang feeling mo magpapasaya sa'yo


hindi pwedeng hindi mo maisip na oo nga madami palang hindi pwede habang binabasa mo to
hindi pwedeng hindi mo maisip kung "ano bang problema ni Din, bkit ganito?"
hindi pwedeng hindi ka maniwala kung isasagot ko na "ayos lang naman ako"
hindi pwedeng hindi natin maiisip na madaming bagay pa ang dapat problemahin kesa sa mga bagay na ganito
hindi pwedeng makalimutan na iwan, saktan, awayin man ng lahat, may nag-iisang hindi pwedeng hindi ka tulungan, si Lord yan

hindi pwedeng konting sakit lang, aayaw ka na
hindi pwedeng simpleng iyak lang, titigil ka na
hindi pwedeng konting sermon lang, magagalit ka na
hindi pwedeng hindi ka lalaban sa bawat pagsubok na binibigay
hindi pwedeng hindi ka magpapasalamat sa lahat ng meron ka

at hindi pwedeng lahat ng to ay walang magandang dahilan..kaya mag-thank you ka na lang

Overload. Overflowing

I can't help but share how happy my heart is this valentine's day. I finally met someone who can make me feel that I am being pursued and courted again. Valentine's Day is just another day actually, but with extra sweet stuff from my lovey. 

happy happy! =)

He put all the gifts on my desk so when I get in, I will be surprised. A huge smile was formed on my face upon seeing the flowers and the huge bear together with red velvet cupcakes and balloon. Sweet, right? Not to mention the "love story" he sent as an entry to our office activity for valentine's day (read my previous post). 

the first thing I did was take a picture of it hehehe

My heart is just filled with overflowing happiness..not only because of the gifts I got from him, but because I have him.. I never enjoyed hearts day with someone for the past few years; either because of relationship complications or singleblessedness. And today, Beej just showed me, once again, how wonderful this feeling is. :)

I'm so thankful for the Lord's plan and how He orchestrated everything to be in place. I am beyond grateful. :)

our baby, BiBi! hehehehe. I sprayed some of his cologne to this cute bear..sarap i-hug..hehehe.♥

On the other hand, I prepared a personalized gift for him - a box with a mini scrapbook, mini bear, mini balloons, chocolates, mini rose and petals. I thought of giving him something that will make him feel what girls are feeling whenever we get those. I'm glad he liked it! =)

 

The things people do for love. 

I really do. :)

you're the sweetest.♥

Pardon my cheeziness..I know I've been too mushy for the past few months..pagbigyan nyo na..si Beej kasi eh. Haha!♥

His Version of Our Story ♥

A budding office romance isn't really as complicated as one might think. 
It all started a year ago. A kick-off meeting for the year's committee on events-planning was held in our main office. Present were familiar faces and old-time members, which I am one. Also in the meeting were first-time members who answered the call for volunteer recruitment. My girlfriend-to-be was one of them. Different activities were raffled off to the members, and she and I ended up as partners.

We communicated through email at first. I was on the morning shift and she worked on the night shift. We bounced ideas off each other for preparation for our assigned tasks. Later on, we would meet in the office at a suitable time to discuss our plans. We would text and call each other for updates and follow-ups.

We immediately clicked and proved to be a great team. This newfound friendship extended beyond the confines of our membership to the committee. We began to know each other more. Likes and dislikes, interests, hobbies. Eventually we had grown deeper fondness for one another. And as if holding true to the tradition of boy-meets-girl scenarios, we became a couple.

We had a great start. We began seeing each other more. Just like typical couples going on dates, we watched movies, had lunch and dinner, visited places, and took a lot of pictures together. The difference in our working shifts was never a hurdle for us. We would always find time to meet early in the morning or at night as it progresses. We were happy and did not worry about anything. Everything was almost perfect.
But the honeymoon stages of relationships always come to an end.

We began seeing each other's faults. We would quarrel over the little things. There would be raised voices and some shouting. Fuming text messages would be exchanged. Our disputes become worse when no one would seem to give up, almost never letting of an arrogant pride. A mighty slap in the face would be seemingly less painful compared to the emotional beating we would have to endure every time we bicker.
But in the end, we always patch things up. We would learn a lot. And we become stronger.

We're not both perfect. My flaws are already a part of myself. And hers, too, contribute to her character in some way. We have to accept us both for who we are. Some flaws aren't even permanent. We change one another for the better. Just by knowing that one is also being loved by the other, we are greatly inspired.
We are constantly in a very light mood furthered by laughter over silly jokes. For a couple that seems compatible with each other, we have major differences as well.

She might never understand my enthusiasm for Star Wars and other science-fiction and fantasy fandoms that reek of geekiness; I might not see the logical reason behind wanting and owning a lot of shoes and bags. I think my Stormtrooper armor is superior to her dress and shoes and bag ensemble, but her hundreds of Instagram photos are worth a gazillion words of storytelling compared to my Harry Potter books. Also, we go on debating on who’s the better player between LeBron James and Kobe Bryant.

And yet, we support one another's interests. We make efforts to find gifts that the other one would really like. A sweet little note or surprise email is sent from time to time. When one is troubled by a problem or stress, the other one is always available to help.

I've been to her home and met her family in numerous times. I also bring her to my family's gatherings for them to get to know about her.

Our relationship isn't perfect, but the love we share is. The great things we see in our togetherness bring us more positivity. With this, we carry ourselves with a favorable outlook towards a foreseeable future with each other.

This post my friends, is Beej's version of our story. This was sent to the whole RCG community as an entry for the RCG Valentine's Day's "Share your love story" activity. =)

Ang haba ng hair ko! Nag-blush ako ng very hard!!! :P

I love you, Beejay!!! =))