Reason. Season. Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person. 

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty; to provide you with guidance and support; to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die.  Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on. 

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it.  It is real.  But only for a season. 

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

AUTHOR: UNKNOWN

http://lifelessons4u.wordpress.com/2009/03/01/are-you-a-reason-a-season-or-a-lifetime/

“Life is like an elevator: on your way up, sometimes, you have to stop and let some people off.” -Unknown

Summer

Ron's shot of the Snake Island in Puerto Prinsesa 2010July

Oh yeah Summer it is. With the scorching heat outside, with your friends posting links, photos, status updates about going to the beach and all that, with all those exciting yet stressful plans of going to wherever, who wouldn't be amused and thrilled about summer, right?


I don't have solid plans yet on how I'm gonna spend my summer. Yeah I have one lined up - that's our company outing on the 21st. What makes me look forward to it is the fact that I'll go there with other committee members a night before the actual and the fact that I'll get to bond with my dear VMS family.


Hmmm, given that I have a crazy schedule and a not-so-funny budget, I don't think this image below is possible..

i wanna fly again

If someone can treat me for a beach date, why not? Haha. But for now what I want is for my best friend and I to push through with our best friend day at the beach. When? Ewan. :p

Puerto Galera February 2009

Or aha, maybe I can just bring myself to anywhere...like what I did before..hmmmmm.. ♥

BAGS

I am no branded. I go for whatever is cute and affordable. Something that would add to my mini collection of bags. Something that would make me stay true to my promise of not wearing the same bag twice in a week or two. Yes. That's my kaartehan. I'm not into make-ups, travel, etc. I just love to have bags of any kind. I have all the basic/common colors I believe. But feel free to add more, gimme please? Hehe.


I just thought of posting it because they said, it's a prized possession. I tried to check the value of my 40+ bags in the condo, and there, it amounted to almost 75k to date. Super cheap coz I'm not into collecting those 5k up bags. I'm not crazy and I don't have the luxury to do so. Hehe.


Pardon my being a girl. I just love seeing them.It makes me feel giddy.♥

Now, tell me, are these stuff not a reason to somehow feel giddy?♥

Fan Girl

i think everyone has been an avid fan of someone/something once in their lives. i've been an avid fan to basketball players. you have no idea how a basketball game can affect my mood 12 years ago. hehe. i even got into a mini-fight with sampalan blues with Ronald Estrada just because he said 'tanga si Bal David' wahahaha.

yess naman nakapost sa cabinet ko..wahahaha

Ralph Emerson Rivera - Former San Beda Red Lion and Batangas Blades player.. Nyahahahaha :p

go renren ko..haha

ANSABE NG WALL POST NI RENREN? hehehe

The following pictures are photos from the Kobe Bryant Manila Tour 2009. I can't believe I saw him in person after almost a decade of loving him. Nyahahaha. Haters will always hate. I can't make you guys love him. I can only show you why a lot can't beat him. Sabee? Nyahahaha :D

And finally my over a decade collection of Kobe NBA Cards :P

Now tell me, sino ang Fan Girl?? Nyahahahaha :D

never a foe

whenever i get to see your posts full of emotions, i can't help but wonder and be sad. he may be the world's greatest jerk and  the all time liar, but he was not lying when he told me he never saw himself with you; a future with you..marrying you. if only i can post here all the things that he and i talked about.. everything about the future..our future.


i know we never had the things you and him had..and you've been with him almost half of your lives..but did you really ask if those past years are worth your pain and sacrifices today and in the next few years of your lives? do you want to just feel his pity of not leaving you because of your kid? 


i don't know. i can't tell. i may not be in the position to tell. he may have fooled me or threw shit on me, he may have been the jerkest jerk in my life, but he was not fooling everybody when he said he's not married to you as oppose to what you've been declaring to the world.


if there's one thing he never lied about, that is the fact that he'd rather live alone than be with you for the rest of his life. i have a proof, but i will not post it..its just a chat and email, i know. 


just have your life back. give yourselves a chance to grow without each other. let go of him NOT for me, but let go of him for yourself, for him, and for your kid.


i may not be your friend, but never did i want to be your foe. this is a sincere message from my heart. 

Narcissism

Narcissism

 Hehe.. This is my page, if it irritates you, hover your mouse pointer on the upper right hand then click X (PC users) or the upper left portion then  click X (MAC users). Oha, very specific. That's because I know one of you, readers, are a Mac user. Grabe pag tinamaan ka dito, confirmed na talaga. You can't live without checking on me. Nyahaha :p


Pictures, yes especially my pictures, make me happy and giddy. For some reason, it makes a bad day turn into a good one. Ewan, baka ako lang talaga yan. Hehe.

smile :D

BF ♥

I so miss my ever loving BoyFriends: Bryan and Francis. Meron ba kayong kaibigan na tulad nilang dalawa? Ang swerte ko kasi ako meron. ♥

Bilang wala naman talaga akong OFFICIAL-YUNG NAKIKITA NG LAHAT-BOYFRIEND, sila ang naging boyfriend ko for almost a year. Best in ghost story kasi yung recent flame ko eh. Yesss flame,  lakas maka-apoy nyahahahaha. Sila ang nagpapamper at nang-sspoil saken, sa mga arte at angal ko, sa mga demands and sungit ko, sa mga lambing at pang-aasar ko..and most of all, sa lahat ng mga pang-hahaggard at pag-mamando ng mga buhay nila. Hehe. 

Miss ko na ang mga pang-aasar nyo saken, miss ko na ang pagsasabi nyo na sina manong guard and friends lang ang market ko..ang pagsasabi nyo saken na wala akong taste sa guys talaga, yung mga pagpapaganda ko pero wit ko pa din makuha ang market kasi kayo ang bet shet. 

Miss ko na ang pagsasabi nyo ng mabuti about me..i know naman cute na cute kayo saken..nyahahahaha. Miss ko na pagpapakain nyo saken talaga...waaaaahhh...super miss ko na kayong dalawa pakshet kayo. Nyahahaha

Best in non-sense tong blog na'to but I want you guys to know na gusto ko naman mag-hagaran tayo ulit..aba last month pa yata yung last bonding nating 3 ah..board meeting nato dammit!!

I LOVE YOU BRYAN JAMES AND FRANCIS ANGELO. I REALLY HOPE TO BE WITH YOU GUYS AGAIN. LIBRE NYO KO. NYAHAHAHAHAHA. KIDDING ASIDE, I MISS YOU GUYS..it makes my heart cry.

foodtrip with franceska elena hehe :p http://instagr.am/p/HYSkaiJmY_/

thanks for dropping by! iloveyou bryan :) http://instagr.am/p/HaqC36pmcu/

Days Off

ah yeah, there's a reason why time off from work is called 'rest days'. to have a rest from work days and literally to rest. for the past few months, I've been spending my days with so much activities that I end up sick during weekends if not out of the house to do whatever. seldom that I get weekends with full energy, always with slight fever, colds, or body pain.


January weekends were spent on two weekend weddings of two of my best girlfriends back in college; Ate Chen and Van - both weddings were kinda out of town, Alabang/Laguna and Tagaytay respectively. Another weekend was spent with the family for birthday celebrations and the other was spent with friends. And yes, no time to fully rest.


February and March weekends were nothing but the same. Spent on semi-work activities, friends bonding, etc. All good, all fun, but with no rest as usual. There were Sundays that I just opted to stay at home to sleep and sleep and sleep. And it's of no good coz it didn't do me better. 


Slight fever on a weekend is a common scenario especially if the preceding work week was unbelievably busy. It's not like I'm the company's CEO or what have you, it's just that I got a lot of things on my hand that I felt 24hrs were never enough. 


And now, technically first week of April (last week was not so first week. yes i explained) and it's Holy Week. Spending my 5days off here in Batangas. For the longest time, I got to sleep 9hrs for 2 consecutive days. Praise God for this break! 


It really feels good to just sleep, watch a movie or do a series marathon while eating, curling in bed, and/or laughing with family. 

FACADE

It's either my side or your side.


You can't let people see a smile from you and forever show them happiness that no longer exists between the two of you.You can't just tell me my illusions distort the reality when it's you who's also holding on to something that doesn't show the radiant truth.

I don't wanna dwell on negativity. I let go of my foolishness. You just gotta tell him to stop checking on me. End of story.

First Quarter Review

1-94 of the 366-page Chapter

What score do I give myself? You tell me. I have compiled the 94 crazy days of this year's first quarter. Feels good to look back at how each day passed by and how each day brought smile and tears to my life. A lot has happened; days when I equated future to you and Isabel, days when rationality knocked me down, days when everything seemed to be in place, days when new doors opened up, and days when I realized that at the end of the day its all gonna be up to me. 

When emotions are high, rationality is low. Its a proven fact. Several times I found myself so certain about things that will happen in the future. I don't want to think its bad, probably just a bit off because none of words uttered were seen in actions. If there's one thing that I'm certain about, that is my plan to continuously assert and bring myself on top of my own game. I guess I'm doing well. This new home I found in RCG brought a lot of changes in me. New people, new challenges, new activities. Everything's brand new. I just love how my life is taking its course now. Achievements to keep me on high, humbling experiences to keep me grounded, new characters to keep me involved. How would you not thank the heavens for the mishaps and wrong turns of yesterday, right? 

At first I thought everything is all about you, you and our plans together, plans that may just be one of the tricks you always give in your own game. I don't feel bad though, that ours has ended. The 21 days you've been away helped me find the answer to the questions the universe have for me. If you really want to be with me, you will be. No if's no but's. And the moment I finally and bravely looked at the answer was the time I felt best about myself. Letting go is freeing yourself from unnecessary pain by unworthy reasons.

Don't get me wrong. Feelings don't go overnight. It's a process I am gladly taking. No denials, no assumptions. Thank you for letting me leave you before this quarter ends. And for that I believe a score of 4 is just right. :)

each page describes how each day transpired

#page1of366: new year doesn't always mean new life, sometimes it's just the day after the 365th day

#page2of366: that feeling of when your mind takes over but your heart pulls back

#page3of366: heart pounding reality that moves you up and down

#page4of366: that long battle of arguments with the man you love

#page5of366: you. future. almost the same

#page6of366: a talk with your bestfriend and the fact that nothing can be hidden to her

#page7of366: i am happy..the universe's sun is slowly but surely and sweetly shining down on me.. :) #thankful

#page8of366: time with friends is always important. :)

#page9of366: be thankful you have a job. smile :)

#page10of366: a lot of roads are two way; some are one way; and others are closed

#page11of366: the ugly truth that you still embrace the universe after all the cosmic shaking it caused you

#page12of366: always look at life as a one-package deal; never outsmart the unknowns. 

#page13of366: real friends disagree but never judge, the universe's effect, may it be good or bad.

#page14of366: whether you like it or not, its people's discretion to stay in your life or drift apart

#page15of366: energy. acceleration. inertia. distance. multiplication of improper forms. lessons of yesterday. application for today. 

#page16of366: its either black or white. there should be no gray in sight

#page17of366: that feeling when you browse through wedding photographs; you'll smile and then realize, you only have one guy in mind

#page18of366: during PMS, even girls don't understand why they show their monster side; you're lucky if you have a lover who still says 'i love you' after you put up a nonsense fight

#page19of366: no matter how good your intention is, some will still think otherwise. worse, it will make you appear an all-knowing shit

#page20of366: one of the best feelings in the world is to know in your heart that people don't/won't talk bad about you when you're not around :)

#page21of366: three is not always greater than two because 'I Do' weighs more than 'I Love You'

#page22of366: your body has its own way of giving up..it needs rest every once in a while

#page23of366: over the weekend, I realized that, I cry a lot..yes, a lot

#page24of366: you can't force your body to move if its really feeling weak, same as you can't force your heart to stop if all it beats for is him #ansaabe :D ?

#page25of366: even if you think that you're just a response, one way or another, you were also the stimulus that caused it

#page26of366: small things define the big ones. no grandest without grand

#page27of366: sometimes, all you have to do is let your heart smile

#page28of366: that smile you get when you realize that what's happening now is EXACTLY what you wanted and thought of 365 days ago

#page29of366: be thankful of your mom's birthday coz you're nothing without it. i love you, mommy!

#page30of366: it always takes two to tango

#page31of366: the heart sees what the eyes don't

#page32of366: one great love. one true love. one right love.

#page33of366: "it's a damn if you do-damn if you dont world. you can't please everybody. choose happiness."

#page34of366: the things that you'll regret are the risks you didnt take.

#page35of366: twenty four divided by a lot

#page36of366: SLEEP HEALS

#page37of366: even the most beautiful firework has its own end-of-the-show moment

#page38of366: the 'I'm-an-easy-to-talk-to-guy' mantra doesn't sound good and doesn't work well all the time

#page39of366: work in progress

#page40of366: balance in a non-conforming equilibrium

#page41of366: a chance and a choice

#page42of366: no one's ever white to question the absence of light

#page43of366: life has its own way to put you to sleep and its own move to wake you up

#page44of366: tables turning at first are surprising but are not always amazing; at times annoying

#page45of366: the greatest date you can have is a date with your family. #lakasmakabitter haha! :)

#page46of366: for whatever its worth

#page47of366: tears are there so you'll have something good to laugh about after a year :)

#page48of366: its not how you get there; its how you manage to stay no matter what they say

#page49of366: putting so much importance to a particular date because it spells coincidence

#page50of366: my network did not exist for nothing

#page51of366: I know I can

#page52of366: that was weird

#page53of366: If my presence annoys you, feel free to get rid of me. Simple, right?

#page54of366: you cannot put a good woman (ehem) down :p

#page55of366: John 8:7

#page56of366: your childhood life speaks much if not all of what you are today

#page57of366: nothingness

#page58of366: time apart can make or break

#page59of366: change is subjective..and every change is a test of one's character

#page60of366: METANOIA :)

#page61of366: it doesn't matter if you pass or you fail; as long as you take it, in the end all will be worth it

#page62of366: things are not always parallel, sometimes, they just have to exude the right angle

#page63of366: that moment when you realized that your friends will never believe your being demure and discreet

#page64of366: be thankful for your own space; it proves that your existence matters

#page65of366: emotional abstract

#page66of366: and just like a last song syndrome, it will keep playing even if you don't want to..its either you consciously stop it or you sing until you hear a song that's new

#page67of366: know when enough is enough

#page68of366: treat your mind as the mom, and your heart as the kid..the former knows what's best

#page69of366: i am everything but an option

#page70of366: that moment when your view finally patterns everything to what is seen 

#page71of366: sleep all day. sleep all night 

#page72of366: all the author needs is a little hiatus to finally give the story a good ending :) 

#page73of366: the Man above has ways of making me happy; only through His ways, not mine :) 

#page74of366: "time flies when you're having fun..."

#page75of366: its not what they show that gives trouble to you; its how you accept and react to it that measures you

#page76of366: done with book

#page77of366: countless reasons to be thankful

#page78of366: amazing place. amazing friends. amazing life. amazing Lord! :)

#page79of366: humbling experience it is

#page80of366: bags make me happy. pictures make me giddy. people make me fall in love more with life :)

#page81of366: whatever it is, all that matters is how you take it and respond to it

#page82of366: don't expect too much from the universe; it will never adjust for you

#page83of366: you can't be too excited; let Him just surprise you

#page84of366: everything exciting is unknown

#page85of366: do not burn the bridges

#page86of366: riddles only you can understand

#page87of366:  timing is everything

#page88of366:  shit happens...you either wash it right away or you let it linger

#page89of366: walk or run; as long as you're moving forward

#page90of366: if i have reasons to frown, definitely i don't have any reason not to smile.

#page91of366: rights = responsibilities

#page92of366: you are what your standards are

#page93of366: "you attract your dominant thoughts"

THIS IS MY STORY NOT YOURS.