twenty twelve

Maingay na naman ang paligid. Mausok. Magulo. Shet bagong taon na naman. Parang ako lang din yan, pabago-bago. Maingay, mausok, magulo. Alam ko pagpasok ng sunod na taon, wala ng magbabago. Kung ano man yun, basta yun na yon. Yun ang hindi magbabago. Alam ko lang. Basta alam ko. Mahirap ng baguhin, masyado ng huli ang lahat para maging pabago-bago. Bakit pa, alam ko naman saken na'to.

Mangarap, magmahal, magpatawad. Lahat yan sangkap ng kaligayahan. Sabihin mo mang mababaw, kumontra ka man ng walang hanggan, kung meron akong napatunayan, yun ay ang sarili mo lang ang amo ng iyong galaw. Wala ng iba. Madapa ka man sa iyong pag-galaw, matuto kang bumangon at muling sumayaw. 

Walang masamang lumakad sa direksyong ikaw lang ang nakakaalam; hindi sa lahat ng oras sasabay ka sa karamihan. Ang tama sa iyo ay maaring mali sa iba at ganon din naman sila. Matuto kang bumagtas ng daang hindi mo nakasanayan, magkamali ka man, nadagdagan naman ang iyong kaalaman. Paulit-ulit ka mang maligaw, wala na silang pakialam bilang ikaw ang nagdusa, ikaw ang napagod. Kung mamalasin ka naman at hindi mo makayanan, tandaan mo, ikaw ang abogado ng sarili mo pag hinarap mo si san pedro. Walang ibang may kayang magsalaysay ng buhay mo, ikaw lang. 

Ikaw ang liwanag ng sarili mong kadiliman sa paraang ikaw din ang boses ng iyong kahinaan. Dapat lang tandaan, wag abusuhin ang kakayahan, para walang mag-aalala na mga kaibigan. Sila ang lubid sa iyong buhay, ang maghihigpit ng lumuluwang mong kamalayan, o bibigti sa natitira mong katinuan. Mahalin sila at alagaan, pero hindi ibig sabihin ay maging sunud-sunuran. Makinig at magpasalamat sa pagmamahal at pag-alaga; kung totoo talaga silang kaibigan, magkaiba man kayo ng kagustuhan, di ka pa din nila iiwan.

Ikaw ang boss ng sarili mong karera, ikaw ang magdidikta kung san to papunta. Hindi sa lahat ng oras ay lagi kang masaya, ngunit di ibig sabihin ay magpapabaya ka. Kumilos ka. Walang ibang mag-aangat sa sarili mo kundi ang iyong pakikibaka.

Ikaw ang puso ng iyong mga magulang. Maswerte ka kung dalawa pa sila. Ako wala ng ama. Mahirap. Kaya kung may problema ka sa isa sa kanila, tandaan mo, anak ka lang. Hindi ko man alam ang dahilan bakit di mo yun magawa, di kita pipilitin. Ang sinasabi ko lang, mabuti ka pa, andyan pa sila. Galit ka man, ang mahalaga, andyan pa sila.

Ikaw ang utak ng sarili mong emosyon. Kung masakit na, sasabihin nila, tumigil ka na. Pero minsan, mas masakit ang tumigil sa pagsinta. Magmukha ka mang tanga, kasama yan dahil nagmahal ka. 

Wag na wag kang manghuhusga. Wala ka sa katauhan at katayuan nila para magsalita ka ng isang dosena. Mahirap mabusog sa sariling salita, nakakahiya, minsan nakakasuka. Walang sino man ang may karapatan ng manghusga, tandaan mo, maski ikaw hindi perpekto. Hanggat wala ka sa sitwasyong kinalalagyan nya, tumahimik ka na lang dahil hindi mo alam, nasisira ka na.

Magdasal ka. Wala ng mas lalakas pa sa dasal na nagmula sa puso mong naniniwala. 

Wag matakot. Magpatawad at humingi ng tawad. Tumawa. Umiyak. Mag-ingay. Manahimik. Magmahal. Masaktan. Magdasal. 

Matutong magpasalamat. At matutong tumanggap ng pasasalamat ng iba. 

Sa dilim makikita ang liwanag. Sa kasinungalingan lalabas ang katotohanan. Wag mangambang dumaan sa malubak na kalsada. 

Mahal kita. 

year-end episode

i found myself sitting in one corner, trying to remember the days that have passed and the things that have occurred in the past year. i'm trying to recall the twists and turns of my young life and how will it affect or help my next few days and months.

I am crazy to have thought of the following to summarize what went through my bitter-sweet year. :p

2011's 10 hot stuff and news makers:

1. emotional and epic rift with a best friend

2. blessing in disguise break-up

3. maintaining friendship

4. gathering of all support system

5. unbelievable flirting

6. virtual romance

7. rekindling friendship with the great love

8. career change

9. new faces

10. travel

2011's First:

1. First International trip

2. First Plane trip alone

3. First long-term virtual relationship

4. First No Boylet of the Month

5. First time a guy wrote me a poem. :)

6. First 6hr bus ride alone

7. First birthday alone

8. First time I've seen myself with husband and daughter to be. OHA.

9. First time I've seen such an unbelievable evilness in a person. 

10. First time i thought of my health. hehe :p

All the the things that transpired in my 2011 are all preparations for my sweet 2012. I'm claiming it to be a year of love and stability for me. ♥ I don't know how and when it will happen, but i have this strong feeling that it will be. My career will go a long way too together with the slowly bouncing back of the family's business concerns. 

This year, friendship with the truest people in my life will remain and will grow stronger. Newly-met people will be cherished. Unnecessary people will be get ridden of.

This year will also open the hearts of the people I've wronged to forgive me. I will leave all the baggage and with all purity welcome 2012. Yes, it's an overflowing positivism on my part. I know this time around, the universe will let me see the sunshine. :)

Happy Twenty12. May the force be with us! :)

To God be All the Glory!

MY UNIVERSE'S SUNSHINE

730 days ago

I found this blog in the wee hours of December 27, while I'm catching up with my favorite TV series..

in full length:



SUNDAY, DECEMBER 27, 2009


why ME


I refuse the idea of writing my love stories. Yes, its with an S. I have plenty and i am not happy with it. Anyhow, I don't want to talk about it here but my hands are the slaves of my mind...and in my mind is the confusion made by different elements around.


The last serious relationship I had was with J. It was a fairy tale-like story that was bound to end in a not-so-good way. It was the same exact thing I did to W. Deymn. I was mean, I know.


J's goodbye was followed by i-am-no-so-proud-of affairs. Yes, the guys were all taken, if not, too much complicated. I swore to myself not to fall in love and I am still keeping the promise till now. I know and I am aware that this depends on me, but still, I go on and explore the not-so-good affair. I keep on thinking that this is Boss' way to let me understand the situation that J and his JJ went through before and to make me realize that they didnt mean to hurt me after all.


Yes, i get it. I know now, and I understand the feeling and i have realized that I am not in any position to judge someone of their actions. I am not in their shoes to know what to do.




Yung totoo, natutuwa ba ko sa attensyon nila? Yung totoo, dapat maghintay na lang ako ng tamang pag-ibig diba? hay


Yung totoo, bakit ba laging ako ang nagugustuhan ng mga taong hindi na pwede. Yung totoo, kasi ineentertain ko ba o dahil ako ang nagpaparealize na may kulang sa mga relasyon nila? Yung totoo, dapat na ba ko maglaho? Hay ulet.




OH YEAH..TALK ABOUT THE SAME EPISODE. I GUESS THE ISSUE IS WITH ME NA TALAGA. HEHE

26th Birthday. 3rd Alone Trip

12-19-2011: Happy birthday to me and happy 3rd year of travelling alone! :) 


Destination: Manaoag Pangasinan-Baguio. For one freaking whole day. Hehe. I know its weird. It was really tiring and at the same time fulfilling. :) 


I started my birthday waking up to several text messages from friends, one of which was from my bestfriend, Zsazsa. I was touched to feel how eager she was to be the first one to greet me, but fell short since she greeted me 10mins before 12. hehe. Anyhow, I had my coffee and yosi while browsing my FB page and reading other posts from friends. It was touching. It's not the same as last year when I had 250+ wallposts, but these messages I got from several people made it all so sincere. :)


I left the condo around 2:30am, bought food from 711, made sure I had paracetamol and other necessary stuff for my trip. I got to Victory Liner Cubao around 3am, bought my ticket to Urdaneta, and waited for my 5am trip to Pangasinan.

That is what I wanted: Bus ride :)


It took me almost 5hours to reach Pangasinan. From Urdaneta I took a tric going to Our Lady of Manaoag.

It was an overwhelming feeling having to spend an hour hearing mass in this miraculous church...what a birthday mass. With this alone, I know I was already satisfied and happy... I'm so thankful to have been given a chance to come to this place and pray.


On the sidelines were ofcourse greetings from friends and loved ones. Here's what my mom sent me :)

isnt she the sweetest? :)

After the mass, I headed straight to Baguio. Rode a van and took over an hour ride to Baguio. Burnham Park, wow. I was thinking of taking a cab going to session road but i decided to just explore the place and walk until I get there. I succeeded naman as I know its just near Burnham. Hehe. I was wearing a skirt and tank top without any jacket at all. YES HINDI SYA MALAMIG. Kaloka!


My birthday lunch: T-bone Steak. Sizzling Plate, Session Road.

Then I tried looking for the famous Chona's cake, pero no go :( 


I just went to the Grotto and pray...Okay naman. :)

Went to Camp John Hay to buy stuff lang kasi di naman natuloy yung plan ko to have coffee there while meditating, reflecting, lahat na ng -ing. Hehe. :)


6PM, I decided to go to SM Baguio and buy gifts, but no avail, I just headed to UK...its almost 7 and they're already closing...waaaaahhh...but lucky pa din kasi I got to this store na super cheap and I was able to get best buy stuff :) Haberdei to me. Hehe.


Wow, 8PM. I planned to have dinner na kaya lang ang dami ko na dala and I didn't plan of staying overnight naman so I had to carry those kahit san ko maisip pumunta. Tinamad nako and just went straight to the terminal. Ang daming tao at nakakapagod talaga.


10PM: Bye Baguio! :)) 

4AM: Hello Makati! :))


i know its a wow, not everyone naman can do this...not that what i did was amazing, pero katangahan kasi. hehe...haggard trip but it was fun. very 'eat-pray-love' ang peg ko! :p


reasons? ah yeah. i wanted to do this so i can get back on track. 2011 has been a bitter-sweet year for me. and i believe it was about time naman for me to reflect on what happened to my journey to the 26th. i'm still thankful..for the challenges, people who hurt me, problems, and of course blessings.. thank you talaga. 


well, hindi ako heart broken compared dun sa first 2 alone trips ko ha: corregidor 2008 and island trip 2010


uhmm, yeah, i think i have special feelings for this person..the guy who actually summed up my 2011..pero things are complicated and i chose to just feel in silence na lang. lets just wait if words will be put into action..in the meantime, ill have my life back.. malay naman natin kay papa wendz pala ako talaga..hahaha :D


anyhow, thank you Lord for everything.. :) Samar naman po next ha? :)

ISABEL

that's gonna be my future daughter's name. :)

it came all of a sudden. a thought of me holding a precious little girl in my arms, looking at her with utmost joy and pride. first time in my life that i've seen a picture of my future child, first time i built dreams and plans for her. this girl will be well-loved. i know, in two to three years, we will bring her to this world. i know in time, complications will leave me and we will be together. i know we will bring her to this world.

the future dad will be a king to his princess, will shower her with amazing love and unbelievable protection. its sweet to know how he will take care of his little girl. i want the future dad to take the princess out, like a real date, in a fine dining restaurant. be dressed up and all that...that way the princess will know how she should be treated by a real man. that way also, the dad will be her first real date ever.

to be continued...

Sayang

Ayokong mainis sa'yo girl. Pinagtatawanan na lang namin kayo. May mga wrong send text messages ka pa kay E, may mga pacute lines ka pa, may videos and diary ka pa. Alam ba ni hubby J yan? Well at least si hubby J walang tinatago sayo, malamang alam mo na nagka-BF sya dati. Ngayon sinabi ko yun kay E, nandiri sya. Ako naman natawa sa mga sinabi ni E about you at sa mga pangungulit mo sa kanya even after you got married.

Ngayon di ka pa ba titigil?

Kakasawa ka na eh. Ang panget ko diba? Wag mo nako isipin, sayang sa oras mo. Sayang naman dalisay at ganda mo. :)

IDK

and I don't know why I can't get mad at you. and stupid me for still believing that all you said was true. what's happening to the world mother effers?!

as much as i wanted to hate you, my system denies the fact that its true. i cant stay mad at you. well yes who am i to get mad? it came to my knowledge that you went for a soul searching trip alone and got all kamalasan there..i can just imagine how maarte your face was knowing how maselan you are. hay

i guess i just miss you..i dont know why. not that i super want you or want things back, but probably because i got used to you brightening up my day for the past four months. moving on is never hard for me, its a fact..maybe i just dont wanna tell myself yet to stop thinking about "what could have been if those things you said were true.."

anyway you said sorry, i accepted it. but that's all.. we could have just stayed friends and not like this as if nothing really existed. oh well..maybe i just love the fact that my phone gets a happy touch whenever it shows your name every effin day. kalerky!!

well well well...

TEKA LANG:

i learned that someone from the office asked my friend about M and I, claiming that it was on my FB posts and Blogs that i was his GF. IT WAS NEVER INDICATED IN ANY OF MY POSTS THAT WE WERE OFFICIAL KASI THATS NOT TRUE. so...i know you might be reading this, please, stop that chismis. MALING MALI. kalerky!

OKAY NA? hehe :)) Blog ko to, mangelam panget!

done deal

i know i just posted an entry about my heart taking the lead once again, my bad folks.                                as today a major event happened. yes its the end of the fairy tale for kermit the frog and his lady, for dastan and tamina, for mickey and din. yes i was a fool to believe that this man is at par from the others. he always tells me he's not like the rest. now i can affirm, yes you're not as you're probably worse than them.

i hate the fact that i appeared to be the bad one, had i known it was true, it wouldnt come this far. i was a victim as well of your sweet words, my bad for believing. i never wanted to ruin a happy family for caleb.  there's nothing actually to be sad about, nothing to end as nothing has really started. it was all virtual and now i thank the heavens for the fourmonth virtual romance. atleast no damage done on my part. it was just pure virtual investment, easy to get over with.                                  

dont worry M, im giving you the benefit of the doubt still. i asked cathy and she said as per office records, you're not married. but that doesnt mean i will believe you still. J loves you that much not to let go of you, i feel sorry for her and for V too. i wanna be sorry for myself but i guess im not gonna regret anything. i always believe in a grander plan and id say you were an instrument to help me move on easily from my breakup with Ron. i thank you for that. no hard feelings on my part baby, i told you thats fine. you could have just been honest from the start. this is the first time i encountered three or four clueless girls and one superman taking advantage.

anyhow, the show is over, done deal mr. santos. lets all move on and be genuinely happy. thank you for the past four months that you made my everyday happy. goodluck to you!

speechless

this writing is not to raise other people's eyebrows, not to let my friends worry, not to satisfy some's nosiness, not to hurt somebody's feelings, not to defend what i am feeling and the person involved but to share the overwhelming emotion my heart has at the moment.                                                                                                                                                                      YES. Its the heart that's talking once again, and yes I never learned. It's hard to resist someone whom you've been wishing to be yours for a long time now. I know those are just words and you still have to prove it. But you made me real speechless by just talking and making me hear the sincerity in your voice and the plans you have for us. I can't wait till the day we're both ready to hold hands and face the world together saying, 'Hey, i love this person and don't you dare ask why...'

fourth month

This marks the 4th month since the day we started communicating. never, as in never did it occur to me that we'll be like this, sharing a special bond that not everybody understands. it all started from a simple to  a huge crush on you running for 2.5 years now.. i used to jut stalk you, look at you from afar, stutter whenever you talk to me, blush whenever you smile at me. It was pure admiration on my part and nothing on yours. Until we got the chance to talk as a mentor and mentee. I got your number and sent you a message. That's it. Just hi and hello. until the day you replied to me and actually conversed with me. It started to be an everyday routine for us. You dropped messages and I did the same.

My admiration got bigger as I started to know the real you, the masungit, the all-knowing, the superior but sweet, malambing, and protective you. You then asked me to court you if I want you to be my BF, just to change things around. I said yes to it, with the intention of just making kilig and landian with you.

Days passed by, we shared happy times and even tons of arguments over text message, phone calls, and instant messaging. Yes, all virtual. It was an issue that you promised to fix. You have an unbelievable schedule that you don't even have time for me. I learned to just accept it and settle.

Until one day, a friend told me about you seeing another girl at the office. I was furious and I confronted you. Why? Because you told me we're not playing games and we're taking things one step at a time. You reasoned out and told me that girl was just part of your past and we have to start over. I agreed kasi di kita matiis.

I got back to the work force. Valero and Leviste. We see each other during lunch time, or after shift. Even if its just for a few minutes. Things went deeper. You call me almost everyday, we talk everyday but we still havent gone out. Again, I don't want to complain.

You told me you're falling in love and even said 'i love you'. We call each other baby, honey, babe, etc.. Every conversation is a kilig one. We still have our petty arguments.. but then again, we're still in this stage, only a bit deeper.

Another friend again told me, you're married to the mother of your kid. You told me you're not. You even want me to verify it with your friends. Again, I believed you. I came across the blogsite/multiply of your past. You hurt her badly as per her posts. I saw your kid, how you held him a few years back. It hurt me pero what can I do? Its your past and I do have a crazy past too. You told me you'll come out clean for me and you will clear your name. Another news that you've been seen with office girl again, I wanted to end this but you said no.. you told me you likED her and its me who you like now. Again...I believed you.

Now you said the table just turned and you'll do everything to prove to me that you deserve my love and heart. Please do show me, I wanna see it now before someone else does. My heart is yours at the moment but I cannot promise that its willing to wait till you're ready to give me part of you.

As of this writing, I have no other man in mind but you. It shouldn't be the case but I don't want to entertain others. I cant even understand why I'm feeling this for you. It is really overwhelming baby.

The last time we talked, you were so happy sharing how good this quarter was for you and the whole program. I am so happy and proud. Someone noticed pa na you look good and fit nowadays. Nakakatawa ka when you told me that some of the people asked you if its because of a lovelife and you smiled and answered, 'maybe..'

Hay. Anyway, if its meant to be us, it will be us..regardless of all dramas and complications. :)

hmmmmm :) obvious na ba?

SINGAPORE 2011

Finally!! July1-4, 2011

Thank you Mark and Manett for making this trip happen.

This was my first international trip and i traveled ALONE. oha?! I was so anxious, nervous, and excited. I talked to a lot of people and asked their opinions about travelling. M even sent me his reminders so as for me not to look stupid and 'first timer' in the airport. Hehe.

I landed SG at around 2:30 am. Mark was patiently waiting for me and very nice to drop me to my cousin's condo which is too far away from where he lives. Astig! Thank you. Finally saw my cousin again. After I settled in, I called M using Manett's phone. He was not picking up at first then he dropped the line. After a few minutes, he called me up. We talked for 10minutes as he was really busy that day at the office (lagi naman). Left each other messages through AIM.

Next day: Met up with Mark and he made me pasyal to different places. It was too hot outside pero it didnt stop me from having lotsa pictures. Hehe. It was just a fun mall hopping day. I wish I had millions that time! Hehe. Again, thank you Mark and Manett :))

Second day: Sentosa and meeting up with Ex and Dyan, and dinner with cousins before my flight home.

The photos tell it all. I had fun super. I promise to be back. Ipon lang muna :))

Thank you Mark, Manett, Kuya Doddie, and Ate Jan. Kisses to Andi :))

hate is not the opposite of love, apathy is

you once told me that when we were arguing about me being affected still by my past. never did it occur to me that i would be following your very own advice in our situation. 

a year with you is no joke. its my example of experiencing real life with someone. we shared a couple of challenges, heartaches, torments, and disappointments. those events made us see our differences and yet we still managed to create and share thousands of smiles, laughters, sweet gestures, unforgettable memories, acceptance, tolerance, learning, debate, and sweet loving.


i saw the demise coming, its true. i know what we had won't really last for a long time as expectations were set early on the relationship, but the tears wont stop and heart breaks into pieces when that day finally arrived. it hurts that it almost killed the sanity in me. that's when i realized i loved you more than i could imagine. 


to save my pride atleast, i decided to move on quietly. no trash talking, no bashing, no communicating. totally apart from the world we both used to live in. i departed from the people whom i know won't help me recover. i took the courage to be quiet and help myself instead. it paid off. after a month, i no longer think of you nor even remember your face when we were still together. though a month had already passed, i still didn't want to hear any story about you, and i prayed hard that God wont let our paths cross again yet. 


days passed and i was enjoying the freedom that i have now. it opened the door of communication with a person i've been admiring for two years now. that person unintentionally removed bitterness in my heart. until one day, i woke up feeling ready to talk about you again, hear stories about you, and therefore allowing myself to finally share thoughts about it. it was a good sign, i believed.


last night, with no preparation nor anticipation, our eyes met again. though it lasted for just 3-4 seconds, it still relieved me from the notion that ill be back to square one if i see you again.  i did feel nothing, no BS, no heart pounding event, nothing. i saw a blank face in you probably because it came as a surprise for both of us. after three months, i saw you again and i never expected it to be this easy and light, as if nothing happened. 


surprisingly after that moment, i thought of maybe saying hello and make small talk with you the next time we see each other. prayers really, can move mountains, can wash away pain and bitterness. we're still friends afterall. as i finish this writing, i know in my heart, i have already forgiven you and myself for what has happened. i will forever cherish the memories we had, it was an awesome rollercoaster ride with you, Ron.


until we meet again, Kulet. may the mighty heavens always look after you and shower you with what will make you happy. i loved you. i'm happy i can now add that letter D to the phrase i once used to describe how happy my life is when i was with you. 

Hello 3rd Month

I don't know if it's a good thing or not. No job at all means more rest for me, more time to make muni-muni about what's happening around me. I'd say the past two months were remarkable as I was able to spend so much time with my family. It's been 5years since I last stayed in Batangas for more than 3days, so this jobless moment is really appreciated by mom and siblings. Haha!


However, it makes me test my patience too about finding the perfect job for me. I promised myself not to settle for anything less again, so I have to choose a job that would really fit my personality..its just taking too much time..patience. Hay


I hope this would be the last time I'm gonna write about being jobless. Oh I have another word for my state now, Rest Specialist. Haha! Hay. Nabaliw nako. Atleast may pahinga akong madami..wala nga lang akong pera. :D

WEDNESDAY

What a terrible day. I blame it to hormones. I am having this time of the month again. I woke up feeling bad because of the little argument M and I had. Yes, we argue a lot. I dont even know why. Differences maybe. So it did set the mood for the day, too bad. I went to an interview-just so I can tell myself that I am serious in finding a new job (blame it to RCG for the promise of calling me for an offer, now I am complacent and super tamad to look for a job). It was 1 in the afternoon and Haring Araw was so mighty powerful. I couldnt really stand the heat outside. It was too damn hot!


The interview went well however, they re-scheduled me for a tech interview, in short, I got nothing to do na in that super init Ayala. I decided to text my friends from 24/7 so I can meet them and my lakad is not sayang naman. I went to the office, saw a lot of people and finally saw and hugged Fats.


Karen and I got ourselves huge mango shake and fries, talked and laughed until I cool down. I just vented out all the inis I have today. I went to Cash and Carry after to buy RCA for my DVD player, Lord, super init talaga today. Hay. I went home, watched Just Go With It and Going the Distance, it made me happy. I promised to sleep early but look at me now, still writing and its almost 2 in the morning. Still not heard from M yet.


I know tomorrow will be better. I just can't understand why another man is now able to bring all posible emotions in me. This cant be happening. Please naman. Waaah.


Hay.

Simple Lang Naman

Simple lang gusto ko. Ligawan mo ko. Bigyan mo ko flowers and chocolates. Puntahan mo ko sa bahay. Samahan mo ko magsimba. Magselos ka at pigilan mo ko sa ibang bagay. Mainis ka pero kaya kita paandaran. Tapos kumain tayo sa mura at sa mahal, magdate tayo at mamasyal sa iba’t-ibang lugar. Magpicture tayo ng madami. Mag-away tayo at maglambingan pagkatapos. Mag-ipon tayo tapos, yayain mo ko ng kasal, pakasal tayo, wag mo ko lokohin. Palakihin naten mga anak naten ng maayos. Pramis, di ka magsisisi saken. Ngayon, simple lang diba? Kaya mo ba? Go. :)

Tameme 101

Naranasan nyo na ba na may crush ka at hanggang tingin  ka lang? Kasi pag malapit sya sa'yo eh natatameme ka lang? Ako kase, OO! Haha. At hindi ko lang ma-absorb na nakakausap ko na ang dating dahilan ng pagkatameme ko. Hindi ko ren alam bakit ko sya gusto. Maangas, maitim, untidy-looking, not approachable, hindi ako pinapansin, lahat na yata. Buti na lang mabango ka. Haha. Pero siguro lahat ng nabanggit ko are the same reasons why you caught my attention.


Ayan tuloy, sa kakiligan ko, I was driven to compile my madaming tameme moments with you. :P


Late 2008: 4th flr-near the printer-behind the pillar beside the TL station


Din: (pasulyap-sulyap sa isang direction lang. malamang eh kitang kita ko ikaw kahit nakatago!)
TL Jojo: Tawagin ko ba Din? Teka lang ah


(tinawag naman nga, lumapit)


At ako, napaupo na lang habang nag-uusap sila. Kamote tong si TL.


Mid 2009: Ondoy: Redgames. May outage. Ni-ping ko sya re the outage. Ang tatag ko lang sa chat. Pagbaba sa yosihan. Ayan na. Habang namomoroblema sila sa outage at sa bumabahang Valero, tahimik na naman ako.


2010: No particular order :P


May 2010: First day after the motorcycle accident


Instance 1: Yosihan: Nadaanan nya ko nakaupo


M: what happened to you?
D: Uhmm, just an accident.,ah...eh..
M: Well obviously (then umakyat na sya)
D: Napa-yosi na lang


Instance 2: Sa 3rd floor habang may kausap syang TL


Din: (tahimik na naglalakad)
M: So where did you get that huh?
D: ah eh, just a motorcycle accident
M: you're a racer now? what? you ride a motorcycle?
D: Uhmm no..okay lang po ako boss..
M: yeah right look at you.
D: *smile*


Mid to Late 2010:


1. Din, sleepy when M suddenly did a side-by-side barging with ate lorie. KAMUSTA ANG GULAT? Napaupo ako ng maayos habang sumusinghot sa paligid. Ambango eh. At dki ako mapakali. Parang tatalon puso ko sa kaba. Nyahahaha! Pasulyap sulyap lang.


2. M habang asa 3rd floor at paikot-ikot. Umupo ba naman sa tabi ni TL Audrey na syang naka-station sa baay kung asan ako?! Kamusta naman talaga?! Tapos pumunta pa sya kay ate Lorie at nagbarge ulet na syang asa tapat ko naman! Kamusta talaga ang pasimpleng pagtayo at pagsulyap ko. Waaaaahhh!!! Eto ang catch: saktong weird ang call ko, long call, email issue. weird talaga!


Din: (lumapit na kay TL Jojo kasi weird talaga issue. padaan daan ako sa tapat ni M kasi lampas pa dun station ni TL) TL, lika nga sa station ko! ang weird ng email issue ko pramis!!
TL: sus nagpapacute ka lang kay M eh!
Din: tanga hindi noh, seryoso mahirap talaga!
TL (lumapit kame sa station ko.)


Nung nakaupo nako...


TL: hey brother, can you help my agent? she said she's having a weird email issue.
Din: LUMAKI TALAGA MATA KO LALO LIKE THIS @_@
M: so what's up? (pagkalapit saken)
**Naman Lord ambango naman neto!!!!!!!**
Din: uhmm ehh..(mega explain ng issue na nauutal na napapasmile)
M: is this a serious call or you're just making fun of me?
D: huh seryoso to noh!
M: alright, contact a mod and tell them i said this.....blah blah blah
D: thanks!
*define himatay?*


3. Asa yosihan.First break (M, TL, others nakaupo). Dumating ako. At ang puso ko hello naman, tumalon ulet!


TL: Sus Din, yang ngiti mo na naman! (take note: andun si M!!!)
Din: Ano ba TL? para kang tanga dyan!
M: (just listening)
TL: (tinanong yung ibang nakaupo): Nakita nyo ba picture ni Din at Ron? sweet na sweet lang eh!
Din: smile (deep inside: lintek ka tl!!! quiet ka lang! si M andyan oh, baka kung ano isipin!)
*pag-akyat, sinapak ko si TL. basag trip eh! haha. sabi ni TL: may boyprend ka diba???? sabi ko: bastaaaa!!!! eh crush ko yun eh!!!


4. FGD: 
TL: Guys, go to the conference room (May mga call pa sila, ako naman, gora na sa conference room, syempre petiks yun eh.)


*Pagpasok ko sa room, sya lang nakita ko. AS IN SYA LANG. waaaaaaaaahh!
D: oh..hi boss!
M: hello. where are the others?
D: still on a call
M: alright, have a seat
 *at umupo ako na hindi na mapakali..hanggang pumasok na sila..at habang nag-FGD. hindi mawari ang ngiti ko. di ako makatingin. nakatitig lang ako. at...parehas kame ng phone!!!! yehey. hahaha!


5. Yosihan: Magkakausap kame nina Mojo, Noah, at Ron. Kwento kwento kame at ang mga teammates ko, asa may other side. Biglang may lumapit:
M: hey
D: (hindi nako mapakali. hindi ko kaya tong moment na to kase katabi ko sya at katapat ko si ron!)
*in short, nagwalk out ako. hehehe. at nagpunta ko sa mga teammates ko na nakatawa saken. sabi ko, di ko kinaya na katabi sya! nyahahaha


6. TCAMP. I was shortlisted sa TL Post. wow. Elevator scene:
M: I saw your name on the list
D: Ah, yes..
M: So you want grow instead of glow?
D: Yes boss..
M: well goodluck! see you around!
D: speechless


Nyahahaha! Shet.


At napakadami pang elevator moments, na nakatingin lang ako. nakasmile..ganon lang...haha :D chinachat ko ren sya, dun lang ako magaling. nansstalk ako sa 4th para makita sya, pag naman malapit ayoko na. may time na ayoko na sa kanya kase nga kakahiya naman sa boyprend ko nun. hehe. saka feeling ko nagfeeling sya. so sinupladahan ko na. pati sa chat lalo na nung ma-bridge ako. casual/professional lang. hehe.


2011


many things happened..i resigned...and the rest is history. yiheeee...let's see... =)


NAKAKATAMEME DIBA? =))