never a foe

whenever i get to see your posts full of emotions, i can't help but wonder and be sad. he may be the world's greatest jerk and  the all time liar, but he was not lying when he told me he never saw himself with you; a future with you..marrying you. if only i can post here all the things that he and i talked about.. everything about the future..our future.


i know we never had the things you and him had..and you've been with him almost half of your lives..but did you really ask if those past years are worth your pain and sacrifices today and in the next few years of your lives? do you want to just feel his pity of not leaving you because of your kid? 


i don't know. i can't tell. i may not be in the position to tell. he may have fooled me or threw shit on me, he may have been the jerkest jerk in my life, but he was not fooling everybody when he said he's not married to you as oppose to what you've been declaring to the world.


if there's one thing he never lied about, that is the fact that he'd rather live alone than be with you for the rest of his life. i have a proof, but i will not post it..its just a chat and email, i know. 


just have your life back. give yourselves a chance to grow without each other. let go of him NOT for me, but let go of him for yourself, for him, and for your kid.


i may not be your friend, but never did i want to be your foe. this is a sincere message from my heart.