Believe

I've been jaded about love for the longest time, made myself believe that true love doesn't exist, and marriage is always bound to fail. You can't blame me, I've had a couple of failed relationships, I've been given reasons to be like this; may it be the people around me, my own experiences, or just stories being shared with me.

Being in a no-boyfriend state for almost two months, it would be hard to believe that I am doing okay, but nothing has changed with my being cynic about the whole love thing not until I attended my friends' wedding. Wedding vows were shared and I could not help but cry. And from that moment, I know, I shall believe in true love and marriage again. Thanks to them, I am still after all, a princess, waiting for my prince to arrive :)

I always joke around that when a guy shows interest in me, I would confront him with a question "teka, may plano ka ba sa buhay? papakasalan mo ba ko?". Yeah, funny, but it just shows that I don't want another used to be (sige kanta tayo). I want someone I can share my future with. I've had enough of not-for-me relationships.

And then one question shook my world last night. Thats from Mr. Someone. Someone who consistently occupies my mind for almost a month now. Someone I never thought I would have this special relationship with. We agreed of baby steps and getting-to-know-each-other process. I am in no rush and so is he.


He asked out of nowhere, "Did it ever cross your mind of being Mrs. S in the future whenever you're thinking of me?" I was not able to answer right away, but wth, I replied. "Serious question? It did somehow. Why ask?" For which he told me "Nothing, just wanna ask. Is with with or without children?" I was like. Whats with these questions? But I remained composed. I said "Not with kids yet"and I explained that I don't want any nonsensical relationship anymore and I am now thinking of my future. He replied "Very good, and so am I. I think we have something in common now" It made me smile, and told him, "Well atleast that would prevent us from playing games with each other, right?" He said: "Yup sweets"


OKAY. I don't wanna give so much malice and color to that conversation of ours, but it made me realize that I am no longer in the playing games stage now. I need to focus on my future as I am not getting any younger, no one else is. He just made me smile by that kilig usap we had. I am excited for the next coming days of my life...let's see if he will be a part of it. He joked around one time when I was on my way back to Makati and I told him "I am excited to pass by Southwoods :)" He replied, "Nothing major on that place except your future..." I know it's just a pick-up line, but diba? Kakaloka lang :)

Well, hush baby hush. Nothing is certain yet. But I would believe in love again. I would enjoy moment. Cheers to good vibes! :)

Dear Geoff

It's your birthday today. How are you my college sideline? Yes. Ang bad ko ba? Eh kase diba nga, boyfriend ko si Wendell nun. I swear, my feelings for you back then was sincere. I still have the love letters you gave me, the pictures we had, and the memories of you that make me feel mixed emotions. Anyhow, I'm still thankful for you and for your family for being warm to me. So sorry I hurt you.


Today is your birthday, I wish you well. Happy birthday Mr. Geoffrey Rhoel Cruz! Kudos to you and Cococ! =)


Tanda mo ba yung library moments? Nyahaha!


Love,


Din




***(Geoff: 2004-2006, UST)

Life is short

Past midnight today, a sad news circulated in the Twitter world. AJ Perez, a young Kapamilya actor passed away in a car accident. Family and friends grieved over the passing of a very loved young man. All good words to AJ as he now joined the creator. I feel for his family and loved ones for it is very hard to lose an important person, especially on his case, it was so sudden. 


We have to keep in mind that life is too short to waste it on anger, betrayal, bitterness, and negativity. We are only given this chance to live the gift of life to the fullest. Let's live each day as if it's our last. Let's show people around us how lucky and grateful we are for them. Let's ask for forgiveness to those we have hurt and forgive those that have sinned us. 


Let's enjoy and face life with a big smile. 


The next few minutes or hours of our lives are never guaranteed to still be ours. Love and be loved. Thank the Lord up above


***Now I miss my Dad....

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Mabigat nanaman ang hikbi
Parang pelikula
May kirot at hapdi ang ngiti
Pilit kinakaya

Pwede mo naming gamitin
Ang panyo ko
Alam mo yan
Kahit wag mo nang ibalik
Wag lang makita kang nagkakaganyan
Wag na

Wag ka nang mangamba
Wag magalala
Luha'y huhupa
Kahit masakit pa
Parang bibigay na
Luha'y huhupa
Ibabaon din
Ng panahon
Mga luha mo ngayong
Iniipon
Wag na

Nabibingi sa linya mo
Wala kong marinig
Kundi patak ng luha mo
Dito sa sahig
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/y/yeng_constantino/wag_na.html ]
Pwede ka naming sumigaw
Kahit sa mukha ko
Alam mo yan
Laway mo'y di iindahin
Wag lang makita kang nagkakaganyan
Wag na

Wag ka nang mangamba
Wag magalala
Luha'y huhupa
Kahit masakit pa
Parang bibigay na
Luha'y huhupa
Ibabaon din
Ng panahon
Mga luha mo ngayong
Iniipon
Wag na

Pwede mo naming gamitin
Ang panyo ko
Alam mo yan
Kahit wag mo nang ibalik
Wag lang makita kang nagkakaganyan
Wag na




I almost killed myself because of so much depression and so much hurt. The first week after my ex-boyfriend broke up with me was really painful. I never saw myself moving on and starting up again, standing up from the fall. I cried almost every hour just to ease the pain and torment I was feeling then. 


This song makes me realize that I am blessed to have wonderful friends. They were there to pick me up when I got broken into pieces, they patiently listened to my bitterness, they whole-heartedly offered their shoulders so I can cry my heart out. They were there when I thought that no one else was left for me. 


I am so much better now, I believe. After 50 days, I can tell my days now are really far from the post-break up week. Thank you Lord.


CHEERS TO ALL MY FRIENDS!! :)) You guys know who you are. The moved on and better Din is your victory! :)

CHEERS TO ZSAZSA AS WELL AND THE REST OF MY TEAMMATES

LOVE YOU GUYS

AWW POOR DIN, CRY BABY

I LOVE YOU BEBES

Special mention to Karen, Keish, Fatima, Zsa-zsa, TL Jojo, team JojoA, Krinel-bes, Ynah (ynah's family), Joyce, Rizelle. :))

Mi BEBEs

I MISS TWO THINGS ABOUT MY BEBES: LAUGHTRIP AND PICTURES. wooo!


these are the latest photos we had, from Ydah's P2 preparation and TL Chocho's birthday party. I'll post other/old photos next time. Wala nako FB so might as well get and choose the best photos to upload here. :P

ATE LORIE AND YDAHBEBE

CURLY CURLY HAIR

DINCKEY AND NOEDA

CUTE CUTE NAMEN!! :)

DIN PACUTE: AS ALWAYS

PACUTE GIRLS

YIIIIIHEEE

WITH MY ATE LORIEBELLS

I LOVE MY BEBES

THERE!!!! :))))

DINCKEY

Ydah gave me a new nickname: DinCkey. Din + (Go Figure) hence, DinCkey. Haha! Yeah. Yeah. :)


How would you feel if a crush of yours for two years now would suddenly be a constant name in your inbox, constant image in your head, and constant reason of your smile? Isn't it super amazing? Yes it is. Ayiii. Haha.


He has this extraordinary something that makes me look at him and admire him. IDK, it may be the angas look, the superiority (?), the fact that he appeared to be not noticing me at all before (unlike all others), ETC. He's not naman the guy in my dreams because he's maitim. Haha. He, I believe, is just the 3rd guy na maitim na naging crush ko. Talk about being Highschoolish. HAHA =))


ANYWAY, I'm just glad this is happening. And yes, I'm careful. Smile. Smile. Smile.


"I am not an ordinary guy..." -M.S  (I freakin know, right?)

Reason

As I browse my twitter page, I saw this from Luis:

luckymanzano Luis Manzano 

not sure if we've met already or have yet to meet but i cant wait to find out if you are the reason why the others never worked :)

That's a very inspiring statement. Of all the heartaches I've been through, I know someday, my reason will come up. I can't wait to finally see you. You may be a person in the past, a friend, a colleague, a former colleague, former classmate, future colleague, future enemy, etc. I am thrilled by the idea that you are on your way to meet me.

One of the break-up lines Ron and I had was: "Malay mo baka kaya nagmamadali si Lord mo na alisin ako sa buhay mo kase malapit ng dumating ang para sayo talaga" I said, "Tama ka, malapit na"

It may be BS at first, but R, as smart as he really is, figured out, that I don't deserve less, and for that, he is correct and I am thankful for him.Ü